Saturday, December 15, 2018

Never Alone

Today, I'd like to share with you a bit of writing that is not my own.  This is from Tensions, by H.A. Williams.  It is published on pages 29-30 of A Guide to Prayer for Ministers and Other Servants.  The Upper Room: Nashville, TN.  1983.

God is no longer the Friend I meet, the Father with whom I hold converse, the Lover in whom I delight, the King before whom I bow in reverence, the Divine Being I worship and adore.  In my experience of prayer God ceases to be any of these things because he ceases to be anything at all.  He is absent when I pray.  I am there alone.  There is no other.
If this experience persists--and is not the effect of 'flu coming on or tiredness--it means that something of the greatest importance is happening.  It means that God is inviting me to discover him no longer as another alongside me but as my own deepest and truest self.  He is calling me from the experience of meeting him to the experience of finding my identity in him.  I cannot see him because he is my eyes.  I cannot hear him because he is my ears.  I cannot walk to him because he is my feet.  And if apparently I am alone and he is not there that is because he will not separate his presence from my own.  If he is not anything at all, if he is nothing, that is because he is no longer another.  I must find him in what I am or not at all. 

Psalm 16:7 (NIV) says, "I will praise the LORD, who counsels me; even at night my heart instructs me."  This suggests that there are times when I am communing with myself, that I am really communing with God.  Not that I am God, but that I am in God and God is in me to the extent that when my heart instructs me, it's really the Lord who gives me counsel.

As I practice contemplative prayer, entering into silence and sitting alone, in the silence sometimes I find only myself--but in communing with myself, I also have fellowship with God.  In this, I am never alone.